I promised someone that I would post a note page from my BLUE JOURNAL..(this is not a journal that I normally share!) This is a journal that I keep for my SHADOW MUSE! There was a time where I FEARED her so much! Where I would not give her the time or space that she wanted and she would rain all over me! She would keep me down and not allow me to continue on in any direction because I would not honor her! So one day after some sage sound advice from a mentor I decided it was high time that I started to balance her with me instead of against me! So when she has something to say, I give her paper and pens and paint and allow her to journal her thoughts. Thus the BLUE JOURNAL...It is here that she can do whatever she wants to do...even muddy colors and paint with all the black and browns (colors that I do not use as a focal point!! LOL) Anyhow, since I have done this she is so much happier...she is a lot more quiet and the affirmations that she does expose to me don't quite seem as negative anymore, but more like sage advice from the crone inside of me. Once I realized that she was there to HELP not HINDER I was able to bring her home! And that is my wish for all today who venture here..that you too learn that the Shadow Muse is part of the person that you are...that she has many great lessons and advice to give you...Listen, let her show you in her way what the fear is about, where it is coming from...She really is just a part of who you really are and where you are going.
ps: this is for you H!